You know the kind who are actually upbeat about everything in life? The kind who believe that noone but themselves can rule them. The kind that believes that motivation comes from within. The kind who see the upside of it all. Well I’m one of that kind.
No exaggeration, but I’ve seen some shit in my lifetime so far! Some things that would have destroyed most people. Some things that would have scarred most people for life. I haven’t been bogged down by them, for I know what my goals are; I know what my ambitions are; and I know what I need to do in order to fulfill them. This is about one of those days when I did not. But, a background for this first.
I was a very emotional kid growing up (still am if you ask my closest buds!). I was a live emotional rollercoaster! One moment I would be laughing hard at a small joke, and the next moment I would be chasing somebody to beat them up! This was despite my slender frame! I was prone to crying if things did not go my way. If I got angry at something, I would have tears first, and then the action next!
But somehow, things improved as I grew. I must credit one of my closest buddies Subhojit Ghosh for that. He helped me understand how a person must think, how a person must act, and how one must react. (Thanks mate! You’ve no clue how grateful I am for that! I do miss you a lot). I started getting calmer and calmer. Another horrific experience during my MBA at IIML made me what I am today, stronger and completely unruffled in my bad times. That story for another day…
Anyways, I don’t know how it is, but there comes a day when you start having doubts, not about yourself, but about everything around you. You wonder why, at the end of all the hard work you put, you tend to end up receiving the short end of the stick. All that you dreamed about can come crashing to the ground, just like that.
You persevere, keep your usual upbeat mood, but somehow there is a day when you just cannot move yourself. It gets all the worse when you are living a thousand miles from home, and no shoulder to lay on.
Friday (7-Feb-2014) was one such day. Things have not been going fine since a few days. But this one day, was horrendous. I am sitting in office and I wanted to smash my screen. I wanted to burst out! I wanted to know why everything was so unfair to me! So I took a break, took a few minutes for myself at the cafeteria. It was then that I wrote the lines of “Such is Life”. I realized that even though I hated writing, this gave me a new way to vent out my feelings, good or bad. I realized that I don’t have to rely on people to be around anymore. I realized that all my experiences that have made me so strong are the ones that can keep me going after all!
I came back to my seat, decided that the blogosphere is where I can make my own world. Where I can just let my feelings float to eternity. If it is bad, it shall pass. If it is good, it shall pass too! No point brooding over it. Just let go.
Thus came the start of my blog. The start of a new passion. The start of another motivation to look forward to a new day 🙂